Dearest John, I am finding the thought of packing up our home distressing but I have tried being here without you for company and I decided being here alone for several days at a time with only memories that go back over 65 years in this road, is too much to bare. I love the memories but I cant bare the future being on my own with all these memories. When we could spend our time chatting of the past both , before we met and the wonderful years we were together, that's wonderful but now I need to have someone to be with and the family are having to keep an eye on me so a little bungalow near to Trish so at least I can see her more than once a month . I worry I am being a problem to them all and I don't want to go in a home. I will be able to have many of our memories with me in a nice little bungalow that I can manage and wont be worry to everyone and I can spend my time chatting to you as much as I want . I miss you so much and just want to be with you xxxxxx