My Darling John , ten weeks ago was the last time I looked forward to going to bed, to be able to curl up in your arms and know that I was safe, that if I woke in the night you would hold me and we would chat about the things we had done over the years until we would doze off again. I miss you so much and it isn't getting easier, I just miss you more. Love you trillions forever xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx